Everything feels so easy with him, like we’ve been doing it forever, and I forget what a big deal this is, to bring two families together, until my son was saying goodbye, he said it was really nice to meet him and his boys, and then it broke my heart a little for my son because it wasn’t “our” family on a weekend vacation, and it’s probably not the last “other” family he’ll have to meet.

A fence is also made of many pieces connected at their ending and beginning points.

Rooted on The Satilla River

Reflections. A lot of it. Canoeing on the Satilla River. 

“Everything that has a beginning, has an ending. Make your peace with that and all will be well.”

BONAVENTURE CEMETERY - SAVANNAH GA

That awkward moment where when saying good bye without even thinking about it you halfway say I love you and then without even thinking about it he half way says I love you back…and then you both just sigh, shake your head, and hang up the phone because that is not how either of you dreamed your first I love you would sound. 

That.

When I took this picture at the Atlanta Zoo I was more interested in all the bird poop than the actual birds. It was either the nurse in me or the two year old.

Anyway, I thought this one had the most adorable awkward head of hair.  

2011 Books Read

Home Land by Lipsyte

Oneness With All Life by Eckhart Tolle

A Reliable Wife by Robert Goolrick

Lords of Discipline by Pat Conroy

This Is Where I Leave You by Johnathan Trooper

The Help by Kathryn Stockett

The Five Languages Of Love by Gary Chapman

Ten Poems To Change Your Life by Roger Housden

Delores Claiborne by Stephen King

Alice’s Adventures In Wonderland by Lewis Carroll

He’s Just Not That Into You by Greg Behrendt

The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran

One Day by David Nicholls

The Devil All The Time by Donald Ray Pollock

Still Life With Woodpecker by Tom Robbins

Choke: A Novel by Chuck Palahniuk

The Last American Man by Elizabeth Gilbert

Love Dare by Stephen Kendrick

Ethical Slut

Seven Days In Utopia by David Cook

Bone Silence by Peycho kanev

~i said yes~

Journal Entry This Day 2008 - Now I Will

• Notice how an everyday thing casts shadows that look like art.
• Notice the color of people’s eyes and how they change.
• Listen when people say what they like, and remember.
• Notice the sunset and how it reflects on the clouds and over buildings.
• Notice the fog and how it lays over the river and a bridge.
• Take the time to capture precious memories with a photo.
• Cherish prized possessions.
• Tune into the feelings of others, and give of mine unselfishly.
• Laugh abundantly and outrageously.
• See imperfections as character, individuality, and beauty, not defects.
• Listen to the music, and the words, and feel it. All kinds.

There was a moment while sitting in that chair I finally realized exactly why I was there. It was because up until that moment, I’d spent my entire life working on a plan. Suddenly I didn’t have one and it scared the crap out of me. Not only was I about to embark on a new journey without a plan, but I was about to do it by myself, both for the first time ever.

The realization itself brought some relief; at least I knew the root of my unsettled feelings. Rational plans always worked in the past and surely a solid set of new ones were all that was needed, which became even more frustrating when I started tripping over what they should be.

A new approach was needed. I’d spent all this time either running toward the future or mulling in the past. What I needed was to sit the fuck still and just look around…even as I write the words it makes me smile because what I finally found was peace and contentment.

We admire those who accomplish goals and take extreme pride in our own. In our culture, the results represent our strength, discipline, and resourcefulness. I’m not saying we should throw goals in the garbage and hop on a gypsy wagon, but I challenge you to consider maybe people who have learned how to truly live in this moment peacefully without a plan are possibly the strongest, smartest, and most courageous people of them all.

Just sharing a little feel-good with you.